I began taking Mephedrone four months ago and how I wish I could turn back the time! In a way I do not regret taking it as I have had some of the best experiences of my life with friends who are now like my family because of it. However, I feel as though people MUST know the bad side.

I go to university so it was easy to get hold of the drug. It got to a point where every night there would be a party where everybody would be round a table snorting lines. I even spent five hours dancing around a kitchen purely because I couldn’t sit still! After a while though the negative effects started to kick in and before I knew it, I was snorting two grams in one night and still needing more. All of my friends would be taking it so the idea of being the only one sober was not an option. We would all get huge nose bleeds and would get to a point where our noses were so sore that we had to begin wrapping the powder in tissue and swallowing up to half a gram at a time! The paranoia set in and I would sit there thinking all of my friends were talking about me and plotting against me. Numerous times people went missing for hours; simply because they thought everybody hated them and wanted to escape.

It got to a point where I was going days without sleep simply because I could not comprehend the idea of not being on it. The friends I had that did not take it stopped speaking to me, and still barely bother with me now. The times when I would sleep for a bit would be counter-acted by the horrific come down where I would feel suicide was my only option. I would sit there crying and shaking for hours with a splitting head ache convincing myself that my life was over and I was meant to die. I even sliced my stomach with a pair of scissors one day to try and ease the pain. I last took it two days ago now and am so desperate to stop. I have lost over two stone and still feel the lowest I have ever felt in my life but things have to change. I can’t drink alcohol anymore as for me, the feeling is not the same and I just feel worse. I’m just hoping that eventually, I will feel content enough to live without taking this life-ruining drug. Please don’t make the same mistake as me.