I’m 19; I started smoking and drinking when I was 13. Pretty soon I tried weed but didn’t like it. I’ve been using amphetamines for 4 years now on a regular basis. I don’t go to university, I work full time, but I live with students so I party full time also. I take speed to get me through the late nights and crystal meth to get me through the exhaustion.

Sometimes I spend a weekend in bed because I just can’t handle any more. My body is all out of sync so I constantly forget to eat.

Thing is, I wouldn’t change my life for the world. I have lots of mates and friends not all of whom take drugs, I get on ok (not exactly excellent but I get by) at work and I still have enough money each month to save for a flat.

I can’t stop because if I do then everything will fall apart. I know this won’t last forever, people say to me my body will just conk out and die one day, but I’m not bothered, I’ve lived a fulfilling life so far and according to my parents, life just gets worse as you get older. I’d rather die young and on a high, than live the rest of my life worrying about day to day responsibilities.