I had taken ecstasy before and loved the high, it felt amazing, and so I thought nothing of getting a few for New Years Eve a few years ago. Me and my mates got them from a lad we got them from regularly and knew quite well, and thinking nothing more of it we went to a pub in town. I had them stashed in my bra and being impatient I went straight to the bar got a Malibu and coke and headed for the loos to drop my first E. The night after this is a blur, all I can remember is dancing and singing in flashbacks, but apparently I took 3 and a half by 12 o’clock and was well and truly away with the fairies when we left. We got in a taxi and went to get some more E’s, then went to a friend’s house to take them. I took another 3 here and spent the rest of the night/morning totally stuck inside my own head. I couldn’t see all I could feel was adrenaline rushing through my body, I was freezing cold and my eyes were rolling back in my head. But I thought I was fine.

Later on not wanting the party to stop I invited some of the group back to mine for New Year’s Day. When we got to my house, the come down hit hard, I felt depressed and wanted everyone to leave. I couldn’t sleep but that’s all my body wanted to do. Everyone left and I was all alone. I went to sleep finally and woke up the next day, I felt indescribable....It was as if someone had put me on another planet. I walked to the shop, 10 minutes from my house and I felt as if I was in another world, and I was scared and panicky. It was the most horrible feeling I have ever felt. I went and sat at home paranoid that someone was going to get me. For the next week I couldn’t sleep alone I had to have someone sat with me until I went to sleep because I was so scared that if I went to sleep someone was going to attack me, and I kept getting weird shocks in my head, it felt like my brain was getting cramp it was so painful.

Ecstasy might seem like a harmless thing to take to make a night even more fun... but the down side’s just aren’t worth the bother.